May 31, 2012
Dear June-kun,
I hope that this letter gets to you
first, before you hear it from anywhere else.
I want to tell you
that I am going to die.
I failed at becoming a stronger
person. Instead, I became a person who always needed someone else—I became a
burden. I realize this now. For a long time I depended on Joseph. Even the idea
of Joseph was enough to help me overcome tough times. But Joseph was false. He
was not who I built him up to be. I believed him and he tried to take advantage
of me. This is a violation I do not think I can forgive and something I
will never forget. I tried for the last month, but I couldn’t. It broke me. He
was not my savior; no can save me, I realize this now, because I had already
died so many years ago.
I know you care about me, but I did
not want to become a burden to you as well. You are smart and caring. You have
infinite possibilities in your future. I was lucky to be your roommate. Tanoshikatta desu. Please have good
memories of our time together.
I regret the day I met Joseph, but I
am glad that I met you. Joseph gave me a hollow existence, but your goodbye
gave me peace. It is with peace that I write this and with peace that I will leave
this world. I hope you will not regret our time together—I know I never did.
Forever,
Mina-chan
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